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When I was 8, my father left for a pack of cigarettes and never returned. I kept wondering what I had done to make him leave. Years later my mother remarried. Both my step brother and my step father sexually molested me. I did not tell my mother because I was scared she'd blame me. My mother is not a demonstrative person and has never told me she loved me. I thought it was just my imagination but my best friends have acknowledged this to me. I have never been in a relationship where I have not been cheated on. I am a very successful professional who put herself through college. After 6 years of purposely not being romantically attached to anyone, I met and fell in love with a man. I have dated him 1 1/2 yrs. I lied to him when he asked me if I'd been touched against my will. I've never told anyone what happened to me. I just learned he is cheating and lies to me frequently. I am so full of pain and despair. I am so filled with shame for my life. I'm afraid I will never have a normal, healthy relationship.
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April 18th, 2009UncategorizedWhen I was 8, my father left for a pack of cigarettes and never returned. I kept wondering what I had done to make him leave. Years later my mother remarried. Both my step brother and my step father sexually molested me. I did not tell my mother because I was scared she'd blame me. My mother is not a demonstrative person and has never told me she loved me. I thought it was just my imagination but my best friends have acknowledged this to me. I have never been in a relationship where I have not been cheated on. I am a very successful professional who put herself through college. After 6 years of purposely not being romantically attached to anyone, I met and fell in love with a man. I have dated him 1 1/2 yrs. I lied to him when he asked me if I'd been touched against my will. I've never told anyone what happened to me. I just learned he is cheating and lies to me frequently. I am so full of pain and despair. I am so filled with shame for my life. I'm afraid I will never have a normal, healthy relationship.